Keeping the Faith

To our Rainbow Baby,

Elora Faith, did you know I call you our rainbow baby? That’s because you have a sibling who’s in heaven with Jesus. We miss that sweet baby a lot. But we now know that we have you in our lives instead!

You were living in my tummy when what would have been your angel sibling’s due date, December 24, 2016. That was hard, especially since it was a week after Nanny passed. But the hope of holding you in my arms helped me get through. My pregnancy with you was fraught with fear, especially for the first few weeks because of my fear of losing you. I just had to have faith.

The first time I saw your little heart beating at 8 weeks pregnant was amazing! I was nervous at every scan I had when you lived in my tummy because I was afraid there would be a time they couldn’t find your heartbeat. But they found it every time. We even found out you’re a girl! I'll never forget that day...the first place I went to was Wendy's to give Nanny the envelope that said "GIRL!" I still didn't know what you were, she was the first to know and all she told me was "another angel.."

I asked God to help me enjoy my pregnancy with you. I made an extra effort this time. I did not want to take you for granted. I should never take you for granted. I held onto my faith.

New life isn’t something to take for granted. I wish I could teach you about how short life is, but it’s something that you have to experience first hand to understand. Even God says in His Word that life is short, just a vapor.

In the story of Noah, God put a rainbow in the sky after he had flooded the earth to promise that He’d never destroy the whole earth with a flood again. The rainbow is a sign that God always keeps His promises. God is sovereign. That means He always knows what He’s doing. He knew what He was doing when He told us to wait for you. We call you our rainbow baby because you were born after we lost a child, but you’re also our rainbow baby because God gave you to us as a reminder of His FAITHfulness. You were my light that Jesus gave me when I was in the dark.

After Nanny passed I prayed that God would give you something to remind me of her. And oh how He answered! It may not be the red hair I was hoping for but sweet girl it is so much better. Your birthmark is a very clear sign from God to me. I can't help but imagine Nanny kissing you right above your eye when I look at you. You have her sweet content personality that I always admired in her. You may only be 3 months old, but I can see it in you. Your smile warms my heart and brightens my day, just like hers did. Oh what a beautiful promise you are, sweet girl!

We love you, Elora Faith. We also love and miss our baby who’s now with Jesus. That doesn’t change our love for you. We are very thankful that God had us wait even though it wasn’t the path Daddy and I had in mind, I couldn't imagine life without you. The pain and the grief was difficult. The waiting and uncertainty was hard. The hope of meeting you was exciting. Now you’re in our arms, and we’re overjoyed. God has a special plan for your life. Just remember that when things get hard, He always (always, always) knows what He’s doing and He keeps his promises!

I love you, my little bunny! 

Love, 

   Mommy