8 Months + Lazy baby

How far along: 32 weeks

Gender: Girl

Weight gain: 16 lbs. I think she got my message last time (:

Maternity clothes: Yes. Besides a few items I have like the dress in the picture above. As long as it's flowy and comfy I don't care if it's maternity or not.

Stretch marks: None yet. 

Belly button in or out: Does flat count??

Emotions: Those have been out of sorts lately.. Will explain below.

Sleep: Besides our precious daughter coming in to climb in bed with us anywhere between 1 and 4 AM...it's good. By the way I hear this is normal for kids her age..anyone have experience with this? I don't mind the extra snuggles, but she's always been a good independent sleeper and my only concern is when the baby gets here.. 

Best moment: Lots of them! Baby showers, school year ending, family in town, seeing Evie (and her hair!) on the ultrasound, and my little sister graduating!! 

Worst moment: Our baby girl already making her mama worry. Again I will explain below

Miss anything: Being comfortable! Any way I sit, stand, or lay is only comfortable for so long.

Movement: Well we have found out that Evie is a bit on the lazy side...

Cravings: Mmm....watermelon, strawberries, really anything fruity or just fruit in general. Popsicles, still can't have enough steak, aaaaand fried bologna sandwiches.

Queasy or sick: Nope. HALLELUJAH!!!

Looking forward to: Just getting ready for Evie and soaking up lots of outside time with Elliana before sister's arrival!!

The past month has been a bit on the crazy side for our family, and little Evie Joy decided to give us a scare in the middle of all of it. Back at my 24 week appointment my Doctor mentioned that in my ultrasound one of Evie's kidneys was larger than the other. He assured me that this is NOT a big issue but something we would have to double check after she developed more. This is something that is common in babies, mostly boys, but it has something to do with the urine not flowing through correctly and backing up the kidney. Fast forward to last week... I have mentioned on here before that Evie moves all the time. I was sure we had a soccer player growing inside me because she was always kicking and jabbing. Well one night I realized that she had not moved for going on 4 hours...pretty unusual for her. I drank caffeine, ate dinner, laid on my side and even poked my belly. Nothing. I called my doctor's office and they sent me to the hospital to be monitored. Once we got there and hooked up of course she started going nuts and even seemed like she was trying to kick the monitor off my belly. A few days later I went back to my Doctor and he scheduled my ultrasound to double check her kidneys, and gave me a chart to keep track of her movements so he could see exactly how much she was moving. His concern was that it could have something to do with her kidneys or something that was not seen in the last ultrasound. If her movement was not enough he would have me admitted in the hospital to be monitored. That was Friday and I had to wait until this morning to get results from the ultrasound and go over the chart. Y'all..this mama was praying so hard and told close family and few friends so they could be praying too. 

I kept track with every movement I could feel and let me tell you...seeing it on paper had me even more worried. She wasn't moving as much as I or my Doctor was hoping... I was scared. I mean, I was obviously thankful that there was some movement, but to be honest there is nothing like having that fear of something being wrong with your child and you not being able to do anything to help her... As moms we can be our own worst critic. We can put a lot of pressure and responsibility on ourselves and get really down if we feel that we have done something wrong or just not being able to fulfill certain tasks. That is exactly how I felt Friday morning...that I couldn't help her, that I wasn't enough for her. But God took care of that...like He always does. Sunday morning our pastor preached about when Jesus multiplied the fish and bread. I  had to miss the first part of the sermon to lead worship for our preschoolers. But when I came back upstairs he said something that hit my heart..."The point is Jesus is enough. He is more than enough. He can take what is poor and make it rich, take what is hungry and make it full, take what is small and multiply it. He is all you need." Wow. No I may not be enough, but Jesus is, and He has plans for this child..whatever they might be, and I need to trust her and everything she is and has with Him. At that moment, my fears went away. I won't lie and say I was completely anxious free but I knew deep down that it would all be okay...that she would be okay.

 On Monday I got to see her all curled up inside me...not moving, but I saw and heard her heartbeat, her hands, feet, legs, arms, and her hair! Wow. I don't know if I could ever get enough ultrasounds just to see her little body. We continued to pray for our sweet girl and good results. This morning Lucas and I went to my Doctor with a hospital bag in our car and found out that EVERYTHING looked good on her ultrasound, and even though her movement was not where he wanted it to be this past weekend, she had a much better day yesterday and he did not send me to the hospital!! PTL! Looks like we just have a lazy baby on our hands. I have to continue to keep track of it and will see him again later this week, but as of right now our baby is fine and healthy. Exactly what we were praying for. 

I know this can be too much for a blog, but I wanted to share this because someone could be reading this and dealing with not feeling like enough, and like I said we may not be but God is and He just wants us to trust Him and know that He's got this. Why should that be so hard for us to do? To give everything to Him...

Have a blessed week, y'all!!